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Monday, February 11, 2013

Rollercoaster: an emotional study of Tuesday

7:45-UP.  Feeling pretty good that I successfully carpooled (like an adult!)  Made it safely to work, all while saving gas.  Did not crash and mildly decapitate my passenger in a fiery wreck, nor did one have to meekly excuse oneself while having to pull into a gas station to use restroom, both scenarios being equally mortifying and causing one much night-before worry.

10:00-UP, UP!  As per a recent personal vow, at break, I grab my coat and dash outside to walk briskly around building. (hm, harboring subconscious hope work facility will crumble and fall if walk around it enough times...?)  Have time to make a cup of coffee for class; feel like an efficient, goal-oriented CHAMP!

14:00-DOWN.  Feel very, very low.  Have to take very first "live" call, from a real person for first time ever.  Feel calmer than expected but can't answer ANY questions posed to me by half a dozen or so of the good citizens of America, and thus ashamedly spend next hour and a half limply transferring calls to other, worthier customer service folk.  Worst bit is when I discover I can not help a caller who is barely intelligible, yet very polite with me and who is most likely a shut-in, and while transferring him, accidentally hang up instead.  Feel like heel.   

14:30-DOWN.  One of the few work colleagues I actually spoke to daily, Domingo, gets fired for entirely silly reason.  NOW who will I eat lunch with?  Aghast.

17:20-UP UP.  Complete a whole second carpooling trip, dropping off my fellow carpoolette with nary a scratch to her person.  Am master of carpooling.  What else can I pool...?

17:35- DOWN DOWN.  Devastation.  Part-time internship concerning study abroad sends polite email rejecting me.  WHY?!?!  I was probably going to turn them down anyway as job was mostly sales-related and cold-calling but...oh, the injustice to be rejected first!  Sting. 

17:36-18:40-DOWN.  Feeling unloved and lonely; not a work friend nor internship in the world do I have.  I nailed that interview, why would they reject me?  And so soon?  Marinate in feelings of ineptitude, grief and sadness.  Does not matter that did not really want internship at all and got cold, condescending vibe from staff.  Am failure at internships. Forever.

18:45-UP UP UP.  New book I ordered has finally arrived!  The Darling.  God has heard my cries and sent me a book about Charles Taylor and violent unrest in Liberia to cheer me!!

Monday, February 4, 2013


Hm. So, since the last time I wrote, I started a customer service job and have gone to interviews for two other jobs.  Jobs, jobs,.....JOBS! 

The customer service job has so far been better than expected, although I am still just in the "training" stages.  While it isn't something I want to do forever, it is nice to know that if the other opportunities fall through, I do have some financial security and it wouldn't cost my sanity and/or healthy blood pressure. 

The interview I had on Thursday was also for a customer service job, but I would get to speak French.  Bonus: better pay and benefits and the team seems super-nice.  Negative: it is an hour away, and all the calls and emails I would have to handle are of the complaint variety. 

Then Friday I had an interview for a company that runs a study abroad website.  I was super jazzed about this one, but then it turned out the job would be mostly cold calling study abroad..programs....or something...?  Actually, I'm not too sure what the job entails as the interviewer was not very clear and also admitted that he hadn't looked at my resume or cover letter yet.  Awesome.  Bonus: the office is very near to where I live and I would get to talk about international education all day, which I LOVE, and this could potentially be a stepping stone to other positions in this field in the future.  Negative: I do not cherish the idea of making cold calls and "selling" something to someone, even if it is free.  The position is just an internship and so the hours and pay are very low. 


I am currently making a giant pro/con list on the whiteboard at the moment.  ALSO, neither job has formally offered a position yet....but still...which do I choose....?

(And now I must go do the complete opposite of watching the Superbowl, ie, watching French sitcoms.)
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